Five Minutes 6/12/2012 update

Five minutes. I keep giving myself five minutes for things. Five minutes to cry. Five minutes to scarf down some food before Rob needs me for this or that. Five minutes to be on the phone with some person that needs me. Five minutes. Not much to many, everything to me.

Today was pretty steady. We started with a fever again this morning. Some results came back on the spit culture. (they did more tests today with his blood) They said that there were some signs of infection. They did give him some antibiotics for his fever and such this morning too. They also said that they were concerned about pneumonia flaring up. He has been doing things with Respiratory to prevent this. A motion vest that helps break up the stuff trying to settle in his chest, as well as a breathing treatment with albuterol, twice a day. He gets chest x-rays done every morning to check for this as well.

He's kept a pretty fluctuating temp of between 100-103 degrees today. His appetite has stayed up. He's eating very well. Been resting here and there during the day. He is still getting meds for the pain as needed. But not on the iv pain push.

(Please excuse me for not being correct on medical terminology.) I hope I don't offend the medical field.

Physical Therapy Came in today some and worked a little on his legs this morning. Just to work on flexibility, and circulation. I'm not an expert in this stuff, but I just observe and learn. It's all I can do at this point. I'm very eager to learn everything that I can, and that will in the future be taught to me. They did come back in the afternoon and put him in a chair called a Cardiac Chair. Its to help patients sit up better, and are great for easy transfer. He was in that chair for a good hour, and snored in it for about 30 of those minutes.

Robert also got a new bed today, that better helps his type of injury. It took them till almost 8 to get it here, but before we left you could tell that Robert preferred it a little better than the other one.

Social Worker came to let us know that he is getting the ball rolling for where they will place Rob for a PT facility. We will hopefully know more by the end of this week, or the Monday following.

There is so much that I could keep typing, so much. I'm just not one to type about every detail about every day. The most important things are what matters.

I have heard so many people are reading to stay updated. It warms my heart that so many people care. I'm humbled at the amount of support and prayers that are going up. And those are only the ones I know about. There are more I'm sure than I'll ever know. I'm faithful to my Heavenly Father that has kept my husband alive thus far. I'm only feeling so blessed that he's here breathing. Looking at me the way he always does when I know he just wants to love on me, and he can't. We talk alot with our eyes now. Share a feeling, an emotion. Oh, how I miss his hugs. So warm, safe and loving. He can feel my touch. I'm so grateful for that. I find comfort in knowing the little he does feel me touching him, seems to make him feel better. I also know it will get better with time.

He apologizes to me, and it hurts to hear that. He didn't cause this. I didn't cause this. We don't know why it happened. Only our God knows. There is a reason for everything. If God wanted us to know everything He knows, then we wouldn't really need him would we? I'm glad that I don't because I couldn't handle it all. At times I don't really know how I am going to handle this, but I know I'm not alone. God is right here with us. Guiding us, Holding us, Covering us with his grace, mercy and love. That is why I love Him so very much. My God could have taken Robert home. God doesn't need him yet. Robert has a divine purpose here on Earth. We may not know yet, but it's going to be something that is far greater than any of us could ever fathom.

I left Rob tonight and he was a little weary. Tired. Possibly Broken. He's ready to get out of the hospital, and into a PT facility. I told him he had this. WE had this. WE CAN DO THIS. Give it to God. Let Him Be in control. This is the only way it's going to work. Being present, but letting God be the controller.

I'll try to post more. Chris and Brandie have done awesome trying to help catch you guys up. Thanks again for all the prayers. Love, Hollie.